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#86 - Damon Hill: Overcoming loss, achieving success, and finding one's identity

Dec 30, 2019 2h 27m 37 insights
<p>In this episode, Damon Hill, 1996 Formula 1 World Champion, opens up about his personal struggles with depression, feelings of inadequacy, loss of identity, and his ultimate path to healing following his remarkable racing career. Damon's life was given a tragic jolt at 15 years of age when his father and legendary F1 driver Graham Hill died suddenly—the common string that ties together so much of his life and has forged so much of who he is to this day. We discuss Damon's unique and remarkable racing career including his legendary battles with Michael Schumacher as well as Damon's firsthand account of what happened that tragic day on May 1st, 1994, when his teammate, Ayrton Senna, died at Imola. But this is not just about racing; rather it's a human story that's cloaked in a racing one.</p> <p>Learn more: <a href="https://peterattiamd.com/">https://peterattiamd.com/</a><br /> <br /> Show notes page for this episode: <a href="https://peterattiamd.com/damonhill/"><span style="color: #333333;">https://peterattiamd.com/damonhill/</span></a><br /> <br /> Subscribe to receive exclusive subscriber-only content: <a href="https://peterattiamd.com/subscribe/">https://peterattiamd.com/subscribe/</a><br /> <br /> Sign up to receive Peter's email newsletter: <a href="https://peterattiamd.com/newsletter/">https://peterattiamd.com/newsletter/</a><br /> <br /> Connect with Peter on <a href="http://Facebook.com/PeterAttiaMD"><u>Faceboo</u></a><u>k</u> | <a href="http://Twitter.com/PeterAttiaMD"><u>Twitter</u></a> | <a href="http://Instagram.com/PeterAttiaMD"><u>Instagram</u></a>.</p>
Actionable Insights

1. View Depression as Signal

Understand depression not as a weakness, but as a profound signal that you are going in the ‘wrong direction’ and need to reorient your perspective and life path.

2. Actively Develop a Full Identity

If you’ve grown up with an overwhelmingly powerful parent or significant external influence, actively work to develop your own ‘fully developed’ and ‘rounded’ identity, rather than remaining ‘half cooked’.

3. Understand Identity as Relational

Recognize that your identity is a compound of your relationship to others, not just who you want to be for yourself. Embracing this relational aspect can be a healing process.

4. Process Past Traumatic Emotions

Recognize that traumatic emotions are not forgotten but can be processed by revisiting and ’exercising’ them, understanding their original context. This prevents them from unconsciously influencing present feelings and behaviors.

5. Untangle Personal Motivations

Engage in deep introspection to untangle your motivations, especially when they might be intertwined with family legacy or external expectations. This process is normal and crucial for self-understanding.

6. Embrace Self-Criticism for Improvement

Be self-critical and view yourself as a ‘work in progress,’ like Alain Prost, as this mindset is often associated with top performers who continuously seek to improve. Avoid believing you have nothing left to learn.

7. Focus on Action, Not External Validation

Don’t waste energy trying to impress others or worrying about what they think. Instead, focus on doing your job well and better than others, and enjoy the process without self-inflicted torture.

8. Know When to Prioritize Self

Recognize when you’ve given your best and it’s time to prioritize your own well-being and family over external demands. This may mean making unpopular decisions, as Damon Hill did by retiring mid-race.

9. Prioritize Family Well-being in Risk

When engaging in high-risk activities, consider the potential impact on your family, especially if you’ve experienced loss. Let that concern influence your decisions to avoid putting them through similar trauma.

10. Take Calculated Chances for Fulfillment

Don’t live life in ‘cotton wool’; take calculated chances that offer a benefit for self-fulfillment. Hope to model courage for your children so they are not afraid to pursue their own challenges.

11. Embrace Persistent Effort for Breakthroughs

Understand that breakthroughs and ‘chance favors the prepared mind’ come from persistent hard work, toiling, and repeated failures, not just flashes of genius. Being ‘in the trenches’ and paying close attention allows you to discern critical insights.

12. Practice Discomfort to Master It

To excel in challenging conditions, like Ayrton Senna in the rain, practice extensively in those uncomfortable situations, even if you don’t enjoy them. This builds mastery and confidence.

13. Cultivate a Problem-Solving Mindset

Adopt a problem-solving mindset where challenges are met with determination, believing that issues can be solved and finding ways ‘around it’ rather than stopping.

14. Value Human Feedback Beyond Data

Even with advanced data and technology, human qualitative feedback (e.g., ’that’s a scary feeling’) remains crucial. It provides insights that quantitative data alone cannot capture.

15. Master Self-Tuning for Peak Performance

Continuously fine-tune both your craft and yourself, like Alain Prost, to achieve peak performance. Develop inner toughness and competitive drive that may not be outwardly visible.

16. Develop Emotional Control in High-Stakes

In high-stakes or dangerous environments, cultivate a ‘protective wall’ to prevent over-feeling emotions. This allows you to pour ‘cold water’ on shocking events and maintain focus.

17. Recognize Burden of External Expectations

Be aware of the immense psychological burden that external expectations and a sense of responsibility can place on an individual, even high performers. This can significantly impact their emotional state and performance.

18. Confront Unpleasant Realities Directly

Seek out and heed advice from credible mentors, like Jackie Stewart, who encourage you to confront unpleasant or difficult realities directly. This is essential for personal and professional growth.

19. Adjust Risk-Taking for Family

If you have a family, adjust your approach to high-risk activities by prioritizing survival and performing at the highest level without crossing an irresponsible threshold. Recognize that your actions impact loved ones.

20. Build Trust Through Authenticity

To build trust, avoid advocating for products or services you are paid to promote, especially if you don’t genuinely believe in them. This ensures your recommendations are perceived as honest and unbiased.

21. Approach Life with 100% Engagement

Cultivate a love for life by actively meeting people, communicating, and seeking to understand every aspect of life across all societal strata, engaging with 100% commitment.

22. Embrace Public Role Charismatically

If in a public role, embrace and revel in how the public expects you to be, playing up to the role charismatically, as Graham Hill did. This creates interest and connects with people.

23. Understand Collective Joy of Achievement

When receiving praise or witnessing celebration, understand that it often represents a collective joy and hope for humanity, acknowledging that someone seized an opportunity and triumphed. This inspires others.

24. Recognize Hidden Extraordinary Potential

Read obituaries of ordinary people to appreciate the extraordinary lives and remarkable deeds of modest individuals. This reminds you that profound capabilities can exist in anyone, often unnoticed.

25. Embrace Unanswerable Questions for Liberation

Recognize and accept that some questions are unanswerable, and allow yourself to let them go rather than stopping everything in pursuit of an elusive answer. Find liberation in this acceptance.

26. Examine Parental Relationships Realistically

As an adult, realistically examine your parents’ relationship, moving beyond childhood idealizations to understand its true dynamics. This can prevent you from repeating unhelpful patterns.

27. Acknowledge Life’s Unpredictability

Understand that life is inherently unpredictable, and even when you believe you’ve ‘dodged a bullet,’ catastrophic events can still occur. This reinforces the need to appreciate the present.

28. Acknowledge Team-Wide Stress in Tragedy

In the face of tragedy or major setbacks, recognize that stress and emotional impact extend beyond the most visible individuals to the entire team. Acknowledge their collective burden.

29. Cultivate Unwavering Self-Belief in Competition

In highly competitive fields, some top performers ’trick their mind’ into believing they are always right and operate by their own rules. This fosters an unwavering self-belief that can be a source of strength.

30. Unlock Hidden Potential Through Mind

Explore the mind’s capacity to unlock hidden potential by ‘playing tricks’ with it, such as imagining pain away or seeking help from a higher power. This can lead to extraordinary performance in critical moments.

31. Learn to Accept Praise Gracefully

Work on becoming more comfortable with receiving praise, even if it feels ‘queasy,’ by acknowledging compliments with appreciation rather than deflecting them. This is a sign of personal growth.

32. Connect with Deceased Through Shared Passions

To relate to a deceased parent or loved one, engage in activities they loved or were known for. This can provide a sense of connection and understanding, even in their absence.

33. Support Children’s Passions Responsibly

When children pursue risky passions, support their aspirations while emphasizing the importance of doing it ‘properly’ and safely, rather than outright denying them, especially if the passion runs in the family.

34. Start with Karting for Racing

For aspiring auto racers, starting with karting is the ‘right route’ to take. It teaches fundamental racing tactics and skills that might otherwise need to be unlearned later.

35. Recognize Innate Passions

Pay attention to ’light bulb moments’ or instinctive feelings of excitement and connection when trying new activities. These can signal a fundamental, perhaps genetic, predisposition and passion.

36. Read “Watching the Wheels”

Read Damon Hill’s autobiography ‘Watching the Wheels’ as it offers deep introspection into his life journey, struggles with depression, and identity, providing valuable lessons beyond racing.

37. Watch Isle of Man TT

To understand extreme risk and skill in motorsport, watch the Isle of Man TT (Time Trial) on YouTube. It’s an incredibly dangerous and impressive event.