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How to Handle Anger, Uncertainty, and Self-Loathing | Mushim Patricia Ikeda

May 5, 2021 1h 11m 23 insights
When somebody wrongs you, what is the wise way to handle your anger? Is forgiveness possible? What about friendliness? My guest today has a lot of thoughts about how to handle anger and how to respond to people who mean you harm. It might surprise you to hear from a Buddhist teacher who actually isn't utterly disparaging of anger. In fact, she is proud (somewhat facetiously) of having been called "the original Angry Asian Buddhist." Her name is Mushim Patricia Ikeda, and she is my kind of Buddhist. She self-describes as "snarky," and, as you will hear, she loves to laugh. She has doable, down-to-earth strategies, and she makes a compelling, if counterintuitive, case for the pragmatism of sending goodwill to people who want to harm you.  Mushim is a core teacher at the East Bay Meditation Center. She is a writer, activist, and diversity consultant. She has trained for decades as both a lay and monastic Buddhist. Aside from anger, we also discuss how to handle uncertainty, and what Mushim calls a "pandemic of self-loathing" in our culture. But we begin with some candid talk about the trauma of being an Asian-American during a time of rising violence against the AAPI community.  This is the second in a two-part series on the uptick in anti-Asian violence -- a trend that should be particularly worrisome for this audience, given the Asian roots of meditation and many of the other happiness-producing modalities we talk about on this show. If you missed it, go check out Monday's episode, where we explore the history of anti-Buddhist and anti-Asian violence in America (which started decades before the pandemic), and the hurt felt by many Asian-American Buddhists about how they can be overlooked by other American Buddhists, including, sometimes, me. Two other items of business: first, are you interested in teaching mindfulness to teens? Looking to carve your own path and share this practice in a way that feels real, authentic, and relevant in today's world? Our friends at iBme are accepting applications for their Mindfulness Teacher Training program - catered towards working with teens and young adults. The last round of applications are due May 15th and scholarships are available. For more information and to apply, check out: https://ibme.com/mindfulness-teacher-training/. And second, we want to recognize and deeply thank mental health professionals for all you do. For a year's FREE access to the app and hundreds of meditations and resources, visit: https://www.tenpercent.com/mentalhealth. Full Shownotes: https://www.tenpercent.com/podcast-episode/mushim-patricia-ikeda-344
Actionable Insights

1. Multimodal Healing for Self-Loathing

If you experience deep self-loathing or a conviction of inherent shame, pursue a comprehensive healing approach including psychotherapy, therapy, or culturally appropriate ritual healing. Utilize all available tools, rather than relying solely on spiritual practices, to address this core issue.

2. Self-Loathing Alleviation Cocktail

To alleviate self-loathing, adopt a combined approach: engage in therapy, foster open dialogues in strong relationships, practice mindfulness meditation to recognize self-critical thoughts as mere stories, and specifically direct loving-kindness towards yourself. This holistic strategy can significantly reduce the intensity of self-loathing.

3. Embrace “I Do Not Know”

Cultivate the ability to sincerely acknowledge “I do not know” when faced with large, uncertain questions, and practice being okay with the feelings that arise from this uncertainty. This helps you fully be with the unknown rather than resisting it.

4. Practice Pre-emptive Forgiveness

In anticipation of future difficulties or potential harm, practice forgiving everyone, including yourself, for everything in advance. This spiritual remedy is intended to protect your own mental and emotional state.

5. Extend Goodwill for Self-Benefit

Practice extending goodwill or friendliness towards those who have harmed you, not for their benefit, but for your own. This utilitarian practice helps you release the burden of hatred, avoid the physical and emotional toll of anger, and respond from stability rather than panic.

6. Skillfully Express & Transform Anger

Recognize anger as a natural and vital human strength that, when skillfully expressed, can fuel positive action against injustice. Avoid suppressing or repressing anger; instead, learn practices to transform its energy constructively, preventing it from becoming toxic or damaging.

7. Shift from Head to Body in Anger

To break free from cyclical, destructive anger narratives, consciously drop out of your head and into your body sensations. This embodied awareness allows you to perceive anger as pure energy, gain perspective, and choose new, creative, and non-harmful ways to metabolize and transform that energy.

8. Observe Impermanence with Mindfulness

Practice mindfulness meditation by repeatedly returning your attention to physical sensations, thoughts, and emotions as they arise, without needing to react or take action (unless in danger). Develop the ability to observe these internal phenomena as processes that constantly change and pass away, thereby realizing the impermanent nature of all experience.

9. Embrace Self as Fluid Process

Internalize the understanding that you are a constantly changing “flux” or “river” of processes, rather than a solid, fixed entity. This realization helps you embrace the inherent mystery and unknown factors of life, fostering humility and allowing you to seek clarity only in the present moment, accepting your limited capacity to know everything.

10. Daily Loving-Kindness Practice

Engage in daily loving-kindness (Metta) practice, even for a short duration, by repeating phrases like “May all beings be well and happy” or “May all living beings be free from suffering.” This consistent, small effort plants seeds that create new neural pathways, gradually increasing your capacity for kindness and forgiveness.

11. Extend Forgiveness to Others

Practice extending forgiveness to others, mirroring your own desire to be forgiven for mistakes and given a chance to act differently. This practice cultivates a reciprocal understanding of human fallibility and the potential for change.

12. Channel Anger’s Pure Energy

When experiencing anger, shift your focus from the “noxious narratives” in your head to the physical sensations of anger in your body, recognizing it as pure energy. Once in contact with this energy, consciously choose to channel it into productive actions, such as vigorous chores, physical activity, or empowering advocacy, rather than letting it cycle destructively.

13. Process Emotions with Humor

Utilize humor, sarcasm, and satire as tools to process overwhelming or toxic information and emotions, especially anger. Engaging with comedic content or employing a humorous perspective helps create distance, gain perspective, and lighten serious material, enabling you to move forward tactically with positive actions from a place of strength.

14. Contemplate Object Origins for Not-Knowing

Practice realizing the interconnectedness and inherent mystery of existence by picking any everyday object (e.g., a coffee cup, a piece of paper) and contemplating its origins: “Where did you come from? How did you come into existence?” Tracing its components back reveals infinite unknowns, helping you relax into the reality of “not knowing” rather than trying to achieve certainty.

15. Reflect on Limits of Knowing

To become more comfortable with uncertainty, regularly engage in contemplative and reflective practices. Consciously set aside your to-do list and worries, then ask yourself: “How much do I really know about the universe, and how much of what I think I know is truly settled and scientifically proven?” This reflection helps you realize the vastness of the unknown and the impermanence of knowledge.

16. Embrace Lifelong Learning & Reinvention

Cultivate the ability to reinvent yourself and be a lifelong learner, recognizing that everything is constantly changing. Practice “sati” (mindfulness) by regularly reminding yourself of your core values and the importance of learning new things, as this allows for continuous growth and mastery.

17. Goodwill for Tactical Calm

Understand that extending goodwill to those who have harmed you does not condone their actions or prevent self-defense; instead, it’s a tactical practice to achieve a calm, balanced state. This allows you to respond skillfully to difficult situations from a place of perspective, rather than panic, and then take necessary actions.

18. Cultivate Grounded, Tactical Response

Cultivate physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual grounding and centering, similar to martial arts training. This enables you to pivot quickly, match force skillfully, and respond to challenges with awareness of your resources, aiming for the least harm and best effect.

19. Cultivate Dynamic Patience

Approach personal growth and spiritual practices with dynamic, alive, and creative patience, understanding that progress is made “drop by drop.” View consistent, even small, efforts as building a “savings account” for your well-being, rather than expecting immediate, grand results.

20. Snarky Loving-Kindness Practice

When encountering frustrating or aggressive behavior from others, adapt loving-kindness practice by internally or playfully (e.g., with a laugh) sending wishes like “May you be peaceful, may you be happy, may you be free from suffering,” even if you add a snarky comment. This practice helps to lighten your mood, expand your perspective, and relax into your humanity.

21. Mindfulness for Critical Thinking

Use mindfulness meditation to unravel delusions, including those perpetuated by consumerism and “fake advertising,” by seeing reality more clearly. This practice helps develop critical thinking skills, allowing you to discern truth from manufactured insufficiency.

22. Assess Receptivity in Advocacy

When engaging in advocacy or expressing concerns, assess whether the situation is genuinely open to hearing and responding positively. If not, “plant your seeds” (share your perspective briefly) and then move on, rather than repeatedly stating points that will be disregarded, to avoid wasting your time and energy.

23. Prioritize Emotional Safety in Routines

If a recommended health activity, like walking outside, causes significant stress or fear, adapt your routine by finding alternative, safer ways to exercise and get sunlight, such as exercising indoors or using a protected backyard. This prevents the activity from becoming counterproductive to your overall well-being.